I have started a 90+1 days faith walk, so of course it has had my mind on faith. Asking myself a hard question(s) such as, am I walking in faith in every area of my life? There are others but this one revealed an area where a spore of doubt had grown into an air borne pathogen.
I spoke with my sister who is spearing the 90+1 days walk of faith and during our conversation, she repeatedly stated, "I trust You, Lord." I began to do the same and I realized that I wasn't trusting God in one area. I was shocked. What! How could this be? My life has been surrounded with walking by faith.
Very disappointed in myself, I went to my Father, with my heart full of sorrow and asked for forgiveness. Then, I asked God how did this happen? He took me to Luke 8:51-56:
51 And when he came into the house, he suffered no man to go in, save Peter, and James, and John, and the father and the mother of the maiden. 52 And all wept, and bewailed her: but he said, Weep not; she is not dead, but sleeps. 53 And they laughed him to scorn, knowing that she was dead. 54 And he put them all out, and took her by the hand, and called, saying, Maid, arise. 55 And her spirit came again, and she arose straightway: and he commanded to give her meat. 56 And her parents were astonished: but he charged them that they should tell no man what was done.
Being a bit argumentative, I just couldn't believe I had doubt of my Father's capabilities in that one area he identified to me. He showed me how I was thinking doubt, even when I was not saying it. This had to be fixed, I did not want to doubt God in any area of my life.
With a very low countenance I asked God, how do I fix it? I must clear out the airborne pathogen. Ephesians 2:1-3 (AKJV)
1 And you hath he quickened, who were dead in trespasses and sins; 2 wherein in time past ye walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that now workes in the children of disobedience: 3 among whom also we all had our conversation in times past in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind; and were by nature the children of wrath, even as others.
Three things I want to point out in this passage that helped me get rid of the airborne pathogen, doubt.
- I was now prompted of my sin of doubt, in the area identified.
- I knew that it was placed there by Satan, the one who had authority over the air.
- I grabbed a hold to the microscopic life form. This pathogen was responsible for the rapid decrease in my faith, in that identified area.
I did not want to remain in this state of being, so I sought out the cure. It was so easy, I followed what is prescribed in Luke 10:18-20:
18 And he said unto them, I beheld Satan as lightning fall from heaven. 19 Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you. 20 Notwithstanding in this rejoice not, that the spirits are subject unto you; but rather rejoice, because your names are written in heaven.
- Know that Satan cannot remain in the presence of God.
- Receive the power given by God.
- Rejoice because you are one of God's and Satan cannot remain in the presence of you because you are in the presence of God.
I confessed my sin, sought out the antidote, and now I can truly say I trust God in that area of my life. It was an eye opener. But when you ask God to reveal all things to you, let him. It is for your good!
If there are any spores of doubt lingering in your life and you say you trust God, you might want to clean them up. Leaving those spore will cause adverse effects to your faith, you will end up with the air borne pathogen of doubt.